I gave up. I feel better without that goddamn machine, but I'm still listless. Four years after this all started I'm broke, out of work no insurance (not that it matters; when I had insurance my fatigue and apnea problems remained), and as I see it, little or no hope. It's tough to look for a job when you'd rather lay down.
1100 days not feeling rested. I've tried different masks, positional sleeping, meds, monitoring software; and I'm still wiped. No job, no insurance. I blew $150 at the doctor last week. He put me on "Remeron," which made me sleep for 12 hours, felt groggy for six hours after wakening, and when if finally wore of my usual fatigue was still there. I'm very wary of doctors; its like going to a casino. They take your money but probably not help you.
How can anyone live like this? How many more years? There's nothing in this world, this life that's worth dragging myself through the day. "Hang in there, its worth it!" they cry. I've hung in there for three years; its not better.
This is it. This is the life. Feeling fatigued and wiped out everyday.
I posted before, but I can't find it. I recently quit my job because they went to a seven day work schedule, at least nine hours a day. I am already exhausted when I wake up. I'm going to burn through my savings and hope some miracle happens. CPAP is not that miracle. It works, just not good enough. I've lost hope.